|CHRISTMAS EVE, 2011.|
hello friends. it's been a refreshing few weeks and hope it's been the same for you and your home. this time of year often conjures up a lot of emotion. whether it's thankfulness for your family, or sadness for the lack of it, gathering around a table with those you love or drinking their memories away. i was so shocked at the full capacity, (at least in looking at the parking lots) of many bars in the area on Christmas eve. we passed a few on our way to different gatherings and i was reminded again at how many people are lonely, not just during the holiday season, but especially then. and not that going to a bar makes you lonely, but i'm thinking that if given a choice, spending Christmas eve at the local bar wouldn't be on the top of your priority list. i don't know. i know nothing of true suffering, internally or externally. and sometimes that really bothers me. how "easy" my life seems. how lovely my family is, the Peace in my heart and the beauty of my husband's great love. i hesitate to call them blessings because it somehow seems that those without these things aren't "blessed" and that's not true at all. perhaps they are gifts. but even that sounds unfair. regardless of the perfect "name" given to these beauties in my world, i am so grateful. i am stirred again to embrace, be present, recognize and love what is before me.
|CHRISTMAS EVE, 2011.|
deep way to start off. sorry about that! it's quiet in our home this saturday afternoon, paisley is sleeping and the boys are at their favorite home, (other then our own).....it's about thirty steps from here and full of nothin' but peace and love and good food. jake is out cutting wood for our fireplace. somehow he managed to find and load about 40 tree trunks onto his trailer! often i just sit back and watch in amazement at the stuff he gets done. he's not human. before i sat to write this post i was watching him out the kitchen window. he has this cute little thing he does with his lips when he's working, pursing them together and squinting his brow in concentration. i've never met a person who works like he does. and loves it at that. not going to pretend that i always appreciate or value that hard work. sometimes i just want him to sit down and put his feet up. but alas, he is a visionary, seeing what is not there and longing to make it happen! one of my first memories of him was watching him carry shingles up a ladder, balancing them on his back with one hand and climbing the ladder with the other. i was amazed then and it hasn't stopped since.
|FIRST CHRISTMAS IN HER NEW HOME.|
we received a christmas letter from my cousin. at the end of her letter she had this quote and i thought it was lovely:
"only those who number their days aright gain wise hearts. only they become God's sages: those calm, unhurried people who live in each moment fully, savoring simple things....unafraid of lifes' inevitable surprises and reverses, adaptive to change, yet not chasing after it...."
~Mark Buchanan from "The Rest of God"~
|HEY, LET'S START THIS YEAR OFF RIGHT, GRAMMIE'S STRAWBERRY PIE!|
|WE BRING IN THE NEW YEAR EACH YEAR with our friends Wendell and MaryJo.|
HERE THE KIDS ARE WITH THEIR OJ TOAST AT 12:01am, January 1st, 2012!
|TIME FOR TEA. I LOVE HAVING A LITTLE GIRL IN THE HOUSE. |
SUCH SWEETNESS, (with a little spice in there too)!
This may be the longest post ever, so thanks for sticking with me. Just wanted to let you all know how much I've enjoyed our year together here in blogland! Thank you specifically for your kindness in the early months of 2011 when we were walking through the valley of death. Albeit, nothing like losing a child you have held in your arms or one you have raised by your side, yet nonetheless, a loss. Your sweetness and compassion lifted my spirit and I thank you for it. I am not certain what this year will look like as far as blogging. Having clarity as to where my limited "free time" is spent is becoming increasingly important to me. Isn't it amazing/scary how quickly the HOURS fly when you're online? It's starting to be disconcerting to me. So, for this month this post will be about it. I'll be back the end of January and we'll chat then.
|THE CARRIAGE HOUSE AT NIGHT. FEELS SO GOOD HAVING GRAMMIE NEAR.|
An inward focus is what I'm feeling drawn to right now. And as much as I enjoy my online time, it's becoming a little cage-like. In that I feel trapped by my own desires, my own online habits. There's a repositioning that needs to take place. And I'm thinking it won't be happening "naturally", but more intentionally so. Sometimes, thankfully, our eyes are opened to the unhealthy habits that have become second-nature. Geesh, maybe I should save all this for another post.....(bless your heart if you're STILL reading)!
|A LITTLE MESSAGE FROM THE BOYS.|
See you in a few weeks.....
"The ability to simplify means to eliminate the unnecessary
so that the necessary may speak."