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Monday, August 6, 2012

waiting

right now i'm waiting for the laundry to be finished so i can put it into the dryer. 
i'm waiting for jake to come home.
waiting for a phone call to be returned.
waiting.

it seems that we are always waiting for something.  some we know are waiting for their loved ones to wake up.  waiting for signs of life.  waiting for hope to fill them again.  waiting for eyes to open and life to be revived.  waiting for their womb to be filled.  waiting for their womb to be emptied.  waiting for a lover to call their own. waiting for their lover to call. waiting for viruses to run their course. waiting for cells to be killed so life can be lived.   waiting for school to start. waiting for school to end. waiting for the party to start. waiting for the party to end. waiting for the next deposit so groceries can be bought. waiting for dinner to be done. waiting to leave. waiting to return. waiting to go to bed. waiting for the sunrise. waiting for the first step. waiting for death. 

see?  waiting is our life.
and perhaps we could, as our pastor once said, "learn to wait well."  that's what i want in my heart. in the deep, deep places of who i am, i want to not be afraid of waiting. 
i want to wait patiently.
wait peacefully.
even wait joyfully. 

because afterall, 
if waiting is our life than how we wait is who we are.  

i like what john eldredge and his wife stasi have to say about it:

Living in true beauty can require much waiting, much time, much tenacity of spirit. We must constantly direct our gazes toward the face of God, even in the presence of longing and sorrow. It is in the waiting that our hearts are enlarged. The waiting does not diminish us… God does not always rescue us out of painful season. You know that he does not always give to us what we so desperately want when we want it. He is after something much more valuable than our happiness. Much more substantive than our health. He is restoring and growing in us an eternal weight of glory. And sometimes… it hurts.
Captivating by John and Stasi Eldredge


4 comments:

Jena said...

:) waiting well.... goes along with being still and knowing, huh?
sigh.... God is working friend, and we are not alone.

nicole humphreys said...

hey, just wanted to let you know how blessed i have been by your blog, maybe this will bring some cheer to you as you wait. i am not good at waiting either so i can sympathize. your children are so precious, i hope that all is well with precious capri. i have 4 blessings of my own -7, 6, 3 and 7 months, who fell asleep while nursing-this is the reason for no caps. i have been so blessed reading thru your posts both current and old. i love the lord and find your blog to be so encoraging. i also walked thru miscarriage-3 for me so i cried thru those posts. i also grew so much in my faith thru the hard times. my 2nd son had a bone infection that required a hospital stay and antibioics for 6 weeks. so your posts about your litle guy's staph infection hit home with me. as far as waiting...when i was 30 wks pregnant with my 4th i had a major gi bleed and almost died before emergency surgery. my little angel subsequently had a stroke in utero. we would not know how he was affected until birth...waiting we chose to put all of or trust in the lord...he was born at 41 weeks with an apgar of 8-9, healthy...we were told he could have some lingering affects that would show as milestones were/were not met. waiting...he smiled...he rolled...he didn't hold/reach for toys...he is recieving p/t and o/t for his motor skills and muscle tone.waiting...i cannot wait to see him hold and chew and play with toys! waiting and trusting the lord and enjoying our precious little miracle that could have perished back at 30wks along. thinking of you as you wait and looking forward to watching you and your sweet family on your blog...you inspire me to be a better wife, mother, child of god. just wanted to let you know.

Mark and Heather Buckwalter said...

i like this. i just repicked up this book and actually just quoted it on my blog.:) thanks for sharing.
love, heather

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