Here are a few quotes from the things I've been reading lately:
~The Speed of Trust by Stephen M.R. Covey~
Let not ANY iniquity have dominion over me.
It feels like there is some INTENTIONAL WORK that needs/wants to be done in me. I don't know what that looks like or how it comes about. Certainly there is no formula, I've learned that long ago. There is a WILLINGNESS TO SURRENDER that leads to transformation, that I do believe. BUT WHAT DOES THAT LOOK LIKE ON A DAILY BASIS? Sitting quietly in my corner chair with a cup of hot coffee, the birds singing songs to me and the Lord whispering through His Word isn't happening right now in the midst of life with a 5, 3 and 1 year old. HOWEVER, I AM NOT WILLING TO SURRENDER TO A STAGNATE TIME OF MERE EXISTENCE nor will I strive in my OWN STRENGTH AND UNDERSTANDING.
His nearness is NOT DEPENDENT upon me,
HIS NEARNESS JUST IS.
Psalm 139:1-12, (my own version)
O Lord, you have searched me and known me, (oh, it feels so good to be known by someone). You know when I sit down and when I rise up; (which is about fifty thousand times each day and night, mostly to tend to my children's needs) you discern my thoughts from afar, (good, because I often can't discern my thoughts even when they are near)!
You search out my path and my lying down, (which I wish were more often)
and are acquainted with all my ways. (Even my grouchy ways)!
Even before a word is on my tongue,
behold, O Lord, you know it altogether. (uh-oh)
You hem me in, behind and before, (like a perfectly made pillow without any stuffing falling out) and lay your hand upon me.(thank you for Your beautiful faithfulness)
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
it is high; I cannot attain it. (yet I long to know Your UNRELENTING LOVE).
(The rest of the verses are from the Message version)~
Is there anyplace I can go to avoid your Spirit?
to be out of your sight? (because just like my children, I can quickly get out of view)
If I climb to the sky, you're there!
If I go underground, you're there!
If I flew on morning's wings
to the far western horizon, (which sounds pretty good to me right now)
You'd find me in a minute—
you're already there waiting! (such a comfort)
Then I said to myself, "Oh, he even sees me in the dark!
At night I'm immersed in the light!"
It's a fact: darkness isn't dark to you; (and brokenness isn't brokenness to you, it's a great place to showcase what You do best~~RESTORE)
night and day, darkness and light, they're all the same to you."
"with unveiled face I will see Him.
There my soul will be satisfied."